Here I am sitting at home wondering how the hell I pull myself together enough to go to the gym. Its not a feeling I am used to and usually find it easy to get myself to the gym and/or train. I have not been sleeping well and when I do, I wake up having horrible dreams and then can't get back to sleep, which causes anxiety because I can't get back to sleep. Sound familiar? This type of lull can be crippling if you don't address what is happening with you. I have just finished a book called "The Subtle Art of Not Giving A Fu*k" and the author explains this 'Hard Loop" in detail. It has helped me deal with some things I am currently going through. If you follow me on social media you would know that all of my posts are positive and happy because thats what I want to portray. I am like everyone else, I have gone though extreme lows and wonderful highs, but at the moment with my current situation, I am struggling a little bit.
I am waiting to move into my new apartment and have all my stuff in boxes. I am unsettled and because I am a creature of habit and my environment is not supporting my mindset which is throwing me off. Now don't get me wrong I am happy, I am sticking to my plan but its bloody hard!
Today was one of those days, I was exhausted from no sleep, I had no motivation to train, however I started with an action instead of waiting for the motivation to hit me. I got dressed, had pre workout, put on some beats and drove to the gym. Once I was there I didn't really think about it and just got stuck into training. Now if i had of just waited for myself to feel energised enough to go, I wouldn't have made it to the gym at all.
Now I am home I think its a valuable to tell those of you who think people who are personal trainers, coaches, people who compete, whatever, are always motivated and have energy to train. Let me just tell you first hand that this couldn't be further from the truth. We are human and we get tired, we don't want to train, we don't want to be in the gym for another 2 hours when we have been there all day BUT we get it done. Being successful and reaching your goal means you gotta do what is needed even on the days you don't feel like it. How easy would it be if we all reached our goals on the days we 'felt like it'. I mean that doesn't teach us anything or help us grow at all. If you have done a show or even reached a goal for that matter you look and see that all the sacrifices where worth it and it makes you realise exactly what you are capable of. This is why sooooo many people compete now because it gives us a chance to step up and gain not just a physical satisfaction but also a mental one. How many of you have looked back at something you did and shocked yourself that you even did that? Which made you realise your true potential? Its a cool feeling hey!
I don't want to have a pitty party or sugar coat anything but, a quote from my dad goes "life is tough, you have to be tougher", has always stuck in my mind. Yeh I have been through some horrific things in my life and yeh I am currently not in the best position due to life changing dramatically but I can be in complete control and be responsible for my happiness and how I choose to respond.
Motivation isn't going to come knocking on your door when you ask for it, its up to you, to find it within yourself and take action first.
Im all about being as real as possible so if this helped just one person then I'm stoked!
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